This is a large vent post so if you don’t want this keep scrolling, no offense taken.
Fuck. Accurately describes the fast majority of my brain waves as of late. Probably because I’m sitting in my room late at night listening to heavy metal and scremo, blogging about my life when I could actually be doing something to solve it, but hey, welcome to America.
I wish people said exactly what was on their mind, what their intentions were so this whole attachment-detachment-reattachment-abandonment thing would stop. For starters what the actual fuck, thanks for trying to reopen this whole thing. Yes, it was a thing, yes I understand there was no “closure” but serously, move the fuck on. You stopped talking to me, you made it seem like you didn’t want this, so why the fuck now.
I have something actually going for me this time. Something that actually might be good for me, that I think might work out for a change. So stop with all the sweetness, your personality is faker than Splenda, I know exactly what you want from me and you’re not getting it, move the fuck on, because I sure as hell have been (I know that statement contradicts this entire post, but venting helps me get over stuff the fastest.)
I’m happy for the first time in a long fucking time. Actually happy, so please, just leave me alone, I don’t need this right now. I’m not sabotaging this, or anything again because of your sick mind games.
I’m letting myself be happy, so fun fact, fuck you. Wish you luck, have a good future, but keep your future out of mine. Delete my number also.
Thanks.
